What/Who/Where I am.

The answer to all these questions can be derived from the word Writer. Because that's what I am.

I don't know if anyone will read this, so I'm gonna use this space to talk freely.

I write to live. As weird as that sounds, it's true. Writing is a part of me or, more like, I am a part of it.

I think one of the reasons I don't do drafts much is because I am constantly writing throughout my day... at the very least in my head. I get excited by words, I narrate things I see, I LIVE in words. It's actually harder for me, personally, to write this blog. Formal, fluid writing comes naturally to me. Subtle shaping and connections happen without me thinking about it. But writing my feelings down? Well, look at my thousands of failed diaries over the year. I find it difficult to be candid. I mean, even as I write this I'm sure you can hear my formal tone. So, an academic blog is different for me. Yet, envigorating. I am enjoying every minute of learning how to articulate my world views in a universal reception.

So, as I said, I'm a writer. But not a writer of essays (although I feel I do well on them). I am a writer of fiction. I love stories SO much. My imagination guides me everywhere.

When asked on a writing forum of mine why we write, this was my response:
"If I didn't write, I wouldn't be who I am. I would be... man, who knows. I need to write. It's as important (or more so) than oxygen. It's WHY I am. Fiction is so... empowering.

I think everyone knows that feeling they get when they finally finish a reallllllly good book. Where one's senses shut down, and you walk around like you're in a daze. Where only the most attacking sounds (like TV) can pull you out of it. And the feeling WHILE you're reading it of course. The feeling that you have to HAVE to hurry and reach the end! And then, the feeling of desiring with all of your heart that there's more to read, and depression that actually HURTS when there's not. Those are the feelings I live for, and that's why I write. I want to write a story to CREATE emotions in others. To make them cry, laugh, and/or throw the book in anger (always fun...).

And I want to send my readers into a book coma. Most importantly, I write because if I don't my character's stories will die with me. And no one will ever know of their lives, their loves and their losses. And I owe them to let them live beyond my physical body and into time. "

I finished my first novel on June 12th, 2009. And have many projects in the works. Maybe someday I'll post them on the blog?

Anyways, it's unlikely that this will be read, but, as a user of blogs, I am starting to enjoy using the space as a free forum, and this is what I was thinking about in class today.

Peace All!

PS>> If anyone DOES read this, I THRIVE ON COMMENTS. Seriously, good or bad, they get me excited. So say hi at least!